Chooose Your Words, Choose Them Well
...written on 2007-01-31, @ 8:08 a.m.
I should never tell him.
I should never tell myself
That it wouldn't matter if you never knew...
I am what I am...
Am I really a whore?
I want you here to protect me
To save me from myself
You're everything I've waited for
You're my goodness
He says I'm the devil.
I only give him my innocent eyes
And a mischeivious grin
I only pretend to be single
Because I don't quite know where I'm going.
I'm making all these excuses in my head
Why it wouldn't be so wrong
I'm still strong enough to leave him guessing
I'm still committed enough to walk away.
He says if we keep talking and never hang out
It will happen
Then he asks if I'm scared
He might be the big bad wolf,
But I'm no little red riding hood.
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I had a terrible nightmare
We were smoking a bowl
Decided to go for a drive...
I was pregnant
Why was I pregnant?
We got in an accident
The car flipped
And I swallowed my little baby's heart
I can still taste the coppery blood
The only thing I remember vividly enough
Is swallowing all that warm, metallic blood...
It's so physically impossible to swallow an unborn child's heart
I was choking on the blood when I woke up...
The first thing I did was txt you.
As soon as you txted back, I called.
I needed comfort.
You told me to get some sleep for school today.
It's cold.
It's fucking snowing.
I blew my money...
I'm upset
It was a stupid move
I can't do everything I wanted for you
Krysta will get me gas money for Friday.
I'll come see you
I want to look fucking hot for you
And, I want to fuck you.
No matter what I might say
I still love you
I haven't called you today...
Do you think our relationship is healthy?
I'd say so.
I'm only afraid...
Thats why I am how I am...
I just wish I could tell you.
they will lead to your demise
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