I don't give a damn what you say.
I'm still going to smoke.
I'm going to work on Sundays
So I don't have to go to your
False church
In which you manipulate.
I won't be disillusioned or brainwashed

How would it make you feel
To know that your precious, forgiving, psuedo-perfect second oldest..
You know, that daughter that you've got under your thumb...
That daughter you think you can so easily destroy...
To know that she is a drug dealer?
How do you think she makes that extra money on the side?
Ever wonder?
Or did you just naturally assume she is a whore?
I heard the intonations.
Fuck you.

So you try, and you can keep trying
To take away my life
To ruin me
So maybe, just maybe I will succumb to your desires
To be controlled, committed to the church, a part of this fucked up thing we call family...

Let me tell you something, though.
I will never
NEVER
Respect you in the same manner again
After you've used all your scare tactics
Taken for granted every damned little thing I've ever done for you
Attempted to destroy the only things going for me
And then hug me and tell me you love me and you just want us to be family...
Family how it was when I was younger...
Family, how it was...
How it was before you became active in the church again
How it was before I turned 17
Before I knew who I was
Before I had respect for myself and what I do.

So, tell me my life is a priveledge,
Not a right.
Tell me I'm only lying to myself
Look in the mirror
Look in
The motherfucking mirror
And tell me that I'm the liar.

If there is ever a time I'd pray
It is now
And I pray to god
You didn't destroy my relationship with my soulmate
Since apparently you had such a great conversation with her.
Or did you just want to make me feel like shit?
Did you just want me to grovel on my knees and beg forgiveness?
Well Fuck that shit.

I'm going to do whatever it takes
To get the FUCK out of this place...
Even though, I'm all to conscious that this is my symbiont..
I need to stay until I graduate...
I have no other choice.

I'm done crying
I don't need to feel so lost anymore
I'm done talking to you
But wait!
You're done talking with me so what the hell, right?
Hope church is going well for you,
Cuz I don't give a DAMN.
You have both hurt me to the point that I cannot forgive as easily as you assume I have.

I'm going to go stand outside and have a cigarette now...

fuck you.

leave |me| alone

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