A Tattoo of a Ring Around My Wedding Finger
...written on 2006-09-27, @ 6:54 a.m.
I've never not loved you.
Only tried so very hard to be over you.
Is it okay for me to be angry?
Angry at myself for opening back up to you
Angry at myself for this
Because where can we go?
And I am forever stuck here in my head
Empty...
Waiting..
But isn't it just futile?
I dont know anymore..
I tried to hard to let you go
For you to come back and say you still love me
But even amidst all my feigned anger
I really wish
I really wish you were around for me to be with you.
Things would be so different.
So much happier
Wed be so much more content.
And here is where I despise myself
Because I want all these things,
All these things I cannot have.
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