Picking up My Chin at Last

Can I ever feel the same again?
Will I ever feel the way I did..
They say I look happy now...
But am I?

I Might Crumble

I feel ugly..
I want to be pretty..
I'm trying very hard...
To be everything I want to be
And failing miserably...

In Quest for What I Long to Be

He's so strange...
I have to ask for affection sometimes
And on other times, he readily gives it..
I'm not sure where this will go...
I know I dont exactly love him..
Not the way I loved before....
But there is a strange comfort in his presence
I feel less alone

I Might Take the Fall Again

Dear Soulmate
I'm sending mom your way...
But I wish it was me..
If I get a raise, and more hours
I'm bringing you to me,
If you don't mind, that is.

You're a Symptom Superficial

She recognizes this lack of care
I said, I care about family
And friends
And that's pretty much it.
I dont know why, to answer her.
It just hurts so much to care anymore
I'd rather sleep.
Which I do often, anyway.
Or work.
What is wrong with me?

I Just Want to Know

I miss the cemetary...
And the rainstorms with my soulmate
I miss the way I felt when I was so in love...
I miss the world falling perfectly before my feet...
I miss the arms that would hold me when I cried...
But I am fighting the invasion of these memories
With him beside me...

Will I be Going Home?

leave |me| alone

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