Sinking Like a Stone in a Sea

Slight calm crawls upon me
As I hide in my room
Researching Erzebet Bathory...
Thinking about my dreams
My future
And of some excuse to graduate in december...

Feel Like Every Chance to Leave is
A Chance I Should've Took..

The storm last night is so befitting my mood...
Every line is about everything I dont want to write about anymore...
I dreamt about him again...
When he is so absolutely over me
Doesn't believe in me..

I Just Want to Believe...

I think they believe I'm kidding
When I say I want a psychologist..
I'm tired of feeling this way
Give me meds
Do something to fix me
And this broken smile
Make me forget him

...If it Makes You Less Sad...

Its so hard to be alive
And not living
After having happiness for so long
Or so I thought..

Every Picture you Paint,
I'll Paint Myself Out

leave |me| alone

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