Condescendence
...written on 2005-11-10, @ 10:35 p.m.

Look at How They Flock to Him

he is the loved one...

So I speak to an old crush

D: hey can you make me a promise
Me: whut
Me: maybe
D: it has to be a yes
D: its an easy one to keep
Me: i guess
D: no guessing do or do not only
D: yes or no
Me: fine i suppose its a yes
D: no supposing it must only be yes or no
Me: yes
D: its very important
D: ok
D: NEVER LIE TO ANYONE
D: ever
Me: right
Me: and i'm making this promise why?
D: ...
D: cuz you have to
D: if you lie then it only hurts others no matter what
Me: well i'm wondering what inspired you to say this
D: just stuff
Me: ok
D: now youve promised
D: but if you lie again you must tell the truth
D: im mainly doing this for john so he doesnt get skrewed over
Me: psh...
D: or over skrewed
D: either
D: one
Me: there is a difference between everyone else and john
Me: he is where my serious feelings lie... he is my one and only
Me: i do all that i do, for him
Me: i would never lie to him
Me: i've done that already, and told him everything, about a month ago
Me: i showed him, too... but it was my step in changing, and it was a good decision on my part, one that i can be proud of
D: yes yes
Me: he is my emotion
Me: my joy, my sadness, my pain, my hopes for the future
Me: he is my everything, and i cannot lose him, ever
Me: believe what you will...
Me: he has changed me..
D: =)
D: you better not
Me: what
D: lose him
D: ever

To Be So Condescending...

...
i am really, truly depressed.
i need to talk to someone...
but who?
and about what?
i dont know what it is...
but sleep sounds so good right now...

Always Find a Way..

leave |me| alone

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